Anybody ever have this happen to them? You walk into a social situation that you already know is going to be semi-awkward, and suddenly you realize that you left your ability to socialize, banter, and generally have a good time somewhere back in the car.
My lovely girlfriend invited me to be her date to an old friend’s wedding. I didn’t know her, or her husband, or basically anyone else there, for that matter. Normally, I think, that would be OK. I spent a lot of time in high school learning how to make myself approachable and agreeable, how to carry on a conversation, how make myself well-liked, and so on. But for some reason (I haven’t exactly figured it out yet), today I just lost all ability to socialize. I was a nervous wreck. I felt like I used to at middle school socials: awkwardly sitting on the side somewhere, trying my best to look past people’s eyes and pretend that everything was fine.
I think I “had to go to the bathroom” like three times, for about ten minutes each, but it had nothing to do with my bowels and everything to do with my desperate, all-consuming need to be alone.
They make a pill for this, right?
I’ve never done well in these types of situations, but it’s been a while since I’ve had to be in one. I got off lucky, too: the reception was mercifully short. But it’s embarrassing to find myself incapacitated like that (I felt worse for my date, but she didn’t seem to mind too much). New social situations exhaust me literally within a minute.
Oof. What a rough day.